Tonight...

Tonight I was crying so deep, tonight was another saddest night, tonight I was feeling so hopeless, don’t know what to do, so weak, and want to die.

All I want at the moment is just happiness. I just want to be simply happy. I’m tired to cry, I’m tired being sad, I’m tired expecting too much, I’m tired being hurt by myself.
I don’t know what to do, what will happen in the next days. There’s lil bit worries inside.
I decided to just surrender and enjoy the process.

Growing up. Yes, I’m passing this part. This hardest part.
So hurt, so sad, so hard. But this is the only way to be a strong woman. Being hurt, feeling sad, doing hard.

But it’s not the end. How to pass this hardest situation?
1. Enjoy the process. Enjoy every hurt, every sad feeling, every `don’t-know-what-to-do` moment.
2. Keep smile. Smile no matters how hurt, smile no matters how sad though how hard.
3. Think positively. There’s a light even in the darkness. There’s a hope even in the impossible situation.
4. Move on. Cheer up and focus to do everything with the best.
And the last,
5. Surrender.
Jesus have loved me, He knows the end of the beginning. He has planned all the best things in my life, for my future. He never leaves me.
“for I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace and not evil, to give you an expected end.” – Jer 29:11

And now I know, all I need to do is just believe HIM perfectly. Believe HIM 100%. Have faith on HIM. Trust HIM. Let His love flowing in my life to give me a humble heart and peaceful mind. For I have my happiness and joyfulness.

Tonight I was looking for my happiness, and guess what I’ve got this morning?
This morning Jesus talked to me in Jeremiah 9:24 with the title ‘The Knowledge of God Is Man's Glory’ or in Indonesian ‘Mengenal Allah adalah kebahagiaan manusia’ <-- say AMEN for that.

“But let him that glorieth glory in this, that he understandeth and knoweth me, that I am the LORD which exercise lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness, in the earth: for in these things I delight, saith the LORD.”

Yes it is.
I want to know Him more than everything. Know His lovingkindness, His sacrifice, His righteousness, His unconditional love. I want to deeper in love in Him. In Jesus. My Lord, my Father, my Best Friend, my Shelter, my Defender, my Everything.

I know He is so loving me! :’)

I ask Him for the very best Christmas and New Year gifts for me and my family. Peace, love, unity, blessings and miracles. In the name of Jesus. Amen.

Count down for CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

Wooooohhhhoooooooooo!!!! H-11

WISH Y'ALL HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR! ^0^