Ini detik-detik terakhir sebelum my real life began. Kenapa gue blg gitu? Hmm because I think when I graduate and get a job, I'll manage my life with my own decision. No, it doesn't mean that I will not need my mom anymore. But at the time, the situation will force me to make a deal with anything without much agreement with my mom. Because my mom told me that when I get a job, I will have my own freedom and I should be so responsible and wise enough in using that. I will have my freedom to do everything. My mom will not take much control of that and honestly it makes me a bit worry. That's why I said my real life began, that I should decide everything my own self. What will I do, what will I take, how will I get something done, how to manage time, money, and so on.
I don't know what kind of person I will be when I have my own freedom. At this time, I really want to be just like what I am right now. Doing my daily routines, don't think about how to manage the money because my mom who takes control of it all. She is a great mom and wise mom. My life will not just go to college anymore, get money from mom, ask more if it's not enough, don't think about anything except my college stuffs and scores. No, not just like that anymore. And what makes me worry is the time that will come when I should decide and make priority between the things that I need and the things that I want. I have so many things that I want, meanwhile I know there are so many things that I need too. Yeah I'm just too worry, I know.
These days made me think too much about it, til someday I got a verse from the bible. Beautiful words of God.
HOW COOL IS THAT, RIGHT?!
Dia yg nunjukin keajaiban-keajaiban yg ngga terukur dan mujizat-mujizat yg ngga terhitung. That's awesome!
My God, Jesus Christ. And as I really know who I am, I'm the most beloved kid of Jesus, I have a thought that my God, my Dad, my Miracle Worker will perform wonders that cannot be fathomed by anyone and miracles that none can count.
So, why I should be worry about everything if my Creator has promised me the things that no body can fathom and count. Jesus' plan is way way way bigger than my worries. He knew my days even before there is a single day that happened.
One step closer and I'm so ready!
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